Mentally Exhausted

Sometimes it's hard to comprehend
Why I suddenly seem to descend
Yesterday, though all was not alright
I was able to resist the chains of plight
But now I feel so heavy and sad
Why? I know not everything has gone bad
I have been accepted to my top college,
And I may just have scored a job, which is a privilege
My school work is hardly nothing at all,
I have free-time enough to go awhol
Even this past week I have become somebody's girlfriend
Which seemed just how a fairy tail would end
Yet here I am
Hopelessly exhausted and defeated as if I had just completed a 500-page exam


Why?

I think this is because I feel my efforts go un-noticed
My friends still cut, though I try my hardest
I feel I do not deserve to be happy,
If so many have fallen to the pits of this valley
Though in life I seem to succeed,
I fear I do not deserve to achieve
If others are falling so rapidly,
Why should I be able to avoid such agony?
Nobody is ever happy anymore
Everything is ruined, everything that was once pure
I am just so useless
What good am I if I can't even raise a few spirits?
I am down and out
I don't want to be out and about
Because though I try, those I love will sob, drop, and cut non-stop

I.
Cant.
Take.
It.
Anymore.